Sunday, September 30, 2012


stepping out of the car at "the river," i breathe air that is fuller, denser, wetter, airier, than city air
it fills me all the way up

Saturday, September 29, 2012


a chocolate croissant, still warm from the oven
a strong cup of coffee, sweet and hot
one bite, one sip makes my day

Friday, September 28, 2012


too much to do, too much to do, too much to do....
anger slips in, undetected
then unleashes his venom when the smallest thing goes wrong
i want to lash out
instead i hide out
ah...he is spent
and i am free

Thursday, September 27, 2012


taking my glasses off as I walk, the world is muted, soft, and blurry around the edges. like it is. not sharp and clear and in focus, like i would like it to be. i resolve to walk this way more often to train in seeing. 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


swimming, i am all business
pull, kick, turn, breathe.
pull, kick, turn, breathe. 
after awhile i start to watch the others
it's not the usual crowd of would-be lochtes today.
on either side of me they are bobbing, paddling, floating, luxuriating.
i try to bring some of this energy into my own workout at each turn.
turn, twist, push, glide. 
turn, twist, push, glide.
it works.
i am a beautiful dolphin,
in my element.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Monday, September 24, 2012


again. again. again. again.
the word haunts me; reverberating in my mind.
why? lice? again?
i breathe and remember...
there is no why.
there is only how

Sunday, September 23, 2012


 after a night of fear i try to understand what we are really afraid of. 
my guides speak to me loud and clear: all fear is fear of death.
conquer that and you will be free.

Saturday, September 22, 2012


"iced breve caramel" latte is what the homeless woman orders when i ask if i can bring her anything
i laugh
only in seattle!

Friday, September 21, 2012


little by little i let them in and find this helps,
a little

Thursday, September 20, 2012


beehive hairdo
boxy beige caddy
movie star sunglasses
what will i look like
when i am 80?

Wednesday, September 19, 2012


like a car revved too high i feel myself starting to burn out
chest tight
breath shallow
i need to stop
i need to rest
nothing will get done today

Tuesday, September 18, 2012


a leaf on the sidewalk catches my eye; i walk on.
go back; pick it up.
sunny-side-up yellow,
turns to spring-grass-green,
turns to compost-dirt-black.
the story of a life, in a leaf.

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Happy Birthday to my second-born today. Here is a small stone I wrote about him.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Saturday, September 15, 2012


on my walk the air is cool and damp. i smell something sweet and verdant. looking around i see a lone honey bee, searching for a last sip of summer.

Friday, September 14, 2012


dance party in my car - " a pay phone trying to phone home...." - i'm sixteen again!

Thursday, September 13, 2012


early evening sky
tinged with pink
softens the world
like rose-colored glasses

Tuesday, September 11, 2012


letting go of "what i planned to do" in favor of "what is called for," i feel my ego unravel a stitch or two

Monday, September 10, 2012

sky blue

driving to the airport, i look up and see a sky the exact color of its crayon namesake
not light blue or pale blue or baby blue

Sunday, September 9, 2012


listening to my boys talking and laughing in the other room, my heart swells

Saturday, September 8, 2012


after swimming 40 laps
hunger overwhelms me
visions of cheeseburgers
dance in my head

Friday, September 7, 2012

Thursday, September 6, 2012


sniffling, snuffling, wheezing, with every breath
i fully appreciate being able to BREATHE